Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in Gill's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
10:24 pm	haha, had to put this up, sorry What Makes You.. by SheBangs12 Your name? Your gender? MaleFemaleOther What makes you sexy? Everything What makes you pretty? Your hair What makes you loveable? How sexy you are What makes you fun? Your love for everything What makes you irresistable? Your kiss What makes you cute? Oh, just about everything ^.^ Quiz created with MemeGen! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 29th, 2005
8:32 am	Dude, this is seriuosly the biggest fuck up yet in my life. It's a long story, so odds are you won't want to read it. Last night i couldnt' decide whether to go to the St. Joe's concert or the dance, and i picked the dance. I wish i hadn't. We all got pretty trashed, except the driver. We were out there, but like Jenna and Dana got seperated or whatever, so i was helping Keith and Catone look for them for like ever. Next thing i know, some kid is getting in Keiths' face, and keith is about to fight him, so i'm holding keith back, and the kid walked away. Next i hear Jenna is in the bathroom puking, so i go wait outside the girl's bathroom and send Dana in to see if she's alright. I turn around, and Tony is telling me Keith is getting kicked out of the dance, and that the cops said if keith doesn't leave the property now they are gonna arrest him. So Tony leaves with Keith and he's like "i'll be back at 11 to get you three". So after spending the first hour of the dance looking for Jenna and Dana so Keith and Tony wouldn't be all pissed, i spent the next like hour and a half sitting outside the girls bathroom, i kept sending people in to see if Jenna was alright and stuff. So i called up Tony and i told him he needs to get back here like right away because Jenna isn't doing so good, and i told him i'd been waiting there for like an hour and a half and she hasn't come out yet or anything, so Tony gets on his way back. So then, one of the teachers got word some girl is puking in the bathroom, and they go in and see, and Mr. Mitch (this douche bag who teaches at sallies) comes up to me and is like "are you with her?" and i was like "yeah" so he knew i'd been drinking, and i kept asking, but he wouldn't even tell me if Jenna was alright cause he's a dick like that. Then catone comes in like "where is she?" and Mr. Mitch was like "are you the driver?" and he said "yeah", so then he i get taken to the office to see Mr. Denardo (well actually Tony goes with Mr. Mitch) and he asks what i'd been drinking, so i told him vodka. He asked what Jenna's name was, so i told him, and he asked if the Driver was drinking, and i said no. At least he gave me an answer unlike Mr. Mitch, Mr. Denardo told me Jenna was ok. So he called my mom, told her i'd been drinking and she needs to pick me up, and that i'm suspended from school, and that the disciplinarian or whatever would get a hold of her monday to say for how long. So basically, i went to the dance just trying to have a good time. Tony and Keith's dates (i didn't ahve a date, just planned on winging it) got seperated, and Tony and Keith got real pissed. I kept them from just leaving altogether, and kept keith out of a fight. Keith went back, tried to start a fight, got kicked out, Tony had to take him home, and i spent the next hour and a half waiting to see if my cousin was alright becasue she was puking in the toilet and someone said she was like almost passed out. I didn't end up dancing to a single song because of all that. And my dad is gonna fuck me up when he hears about this, because he didn't see my report card that came in the other day (2.9 GPA), so he'll be super pissed about that too. My mom, who saw the report card and was already really really mad at me, probably won't speak to me for a while unless it's to yell at me. I've gotten suspended from school. And in all honesty, it doesn't even bother me that much because i'm just glad Jenna is alright. But i feel really bad that she got in trouble too, and i don't know what happened to catone, they put us in seperate offices, and i didn't see him since, but if he got in trouble, that would be my fault too because i called him and told him to come back becasue we needed to get jenna home. So yeah, that's the story, and now i'm screwed beyond belief, and i'll be lucky if my dad will ever trust me with anything ever again. Let alone if he ever lets me out of the house or online once he finds out. EDIT: I may be asked to not return to sallies, so i might be getting expelled Current Mood: scared Current Music: Sevendust - Crucified (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
4:20 pm	Don't really have anything to say. Haven't talked to most of you in a while, just wondering how everyone is doing and what's new and such. Current Music: Something Corporate - Down (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
6:41 pm	haha, dude, that Sexigurl chick or whatever reads my journal. how fun is that? haha, like she'll probably read this, and call me a loser, but who reads someone they don't know or like's livejournal? obsessed much? haha, so yeah, if i have any actual updated i'll probably make them friends only from now on (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
3:09 pm	I don't understand people at all, haha, guess i'm just not really cut out for the whole people thing. Blah, haha It's cold it's hard and I'm locked inside this I've gone too far I can't rectify this I walk away falling into It's such a shame how I'll miss you I feel shot, can you reach me? You cannot bring me back And I'll always sink into nothing And I'm on my knees again And I can't believe that it's always Under my skin, yeah Don't leave me out, leave me hanging Don't keep me down, down and dragging You're so sure that I won't splinter You're so good, you're so good And I'll always sink into nothing And I'm on my knees again And I can't believe that it's always Under my skin, yeah Shift time - To come back in line 'Cause when I tried - To embrace my life Gonna dry up - Was it something you're fed? Get you sickened - Was it something I said? And I'll always sink into nothing And I'm on my knees again And I can't believe that it's always Under my skin, yeah All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain All it did was All it did was rain Current Music: 40 below summer - Rain (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
5:04 pm	Fuck all this bullshit, i think i'm just gonna get a new s/n, so if i do i'll let everyone know what it is... sEx1guRl03: u really do make ppl feel like shit. ur real friends josh and swati? u named josh first, ha he doesnt even care wat u do cause of how badly u treated him. and swati along with binh, they wont forget what u did and theyre going to never forget how u made them feel terrible. like swati, sheseems to feel worse than all these sucky ppl cause of u. u really suck if u made someone feel that bad. too bad ure such a horrible friend that u dont even try and make her feel better. no, firts treat her like shit, then pretend u like her again and ask KATIE out then now 'oh ur a friend'. now u dont like her and imagine how that makes her feel., like it was a lie all along and she sucks so much now that u dont. ur an asshole for messing with peoples minds. Auto response from TheAlmightyGill: Drop a line pimpton 484-288-0218 Walk away me boys Walk away me boys By mornin' we'll be free Whipe that golden tear from your mother dear Raise what's left of the flag for me sEx1guRl03: u make josh feel horrible about himself. and its not like u ask them to do something urself, no all u care about is girls. and they know that, thats y they dont even bother anymore. just urself and girls, thats all that comes first to u. and they know that before u talked to josh and swati a lot cause u liked swati they understand that now and prob thats y u hardly hang out with them. and if u do who do u call, josh right? the one who cares the least outta the other..good one. u try and be good friends with ppl then u dont even act like a good friend urself. u dont call xcept wen u cant hang out with othres and then u treat them like dirt most of the time and make them feel shitty. and pagano, u prob know hes not a real friend, u just hang out with him to have fun. and jim, u treat him so badly. and oh maria, u like her, and will prob start hanging out with her and all instead of josh and swati, and yeah thatll make them feel great. esp swati who ull ditch for another girl just like u did a million times before.. good one, good guy. ha. sEx1guRl03 signed off at 4:58:03 PM. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Incubus - Sick Sad Little World (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2004
6:48 pm	Every time i think things are getting better life has a funny way of just twisting the knife a little deeper. It's a huge fucking waste of time, and through all my effort i never accomplish anything anyway. Someone just put me out of my misery Current Mood: Fuck You! Current Music: Dope - Intervention (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
8:20 pm	new addition to the pink clothing collection, you'll all probably see it soon enough, haha (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
11:58 pm	Tonight was fun, got to see some people i don't see too often. Got to pick up 2 new CDs (Mindless Self Indulgence - Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy and Soulfly - Primitive). Then went to josh's. Chilled with Josh, Michelle, Swati, Kat, Brian. It was tons of fun. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR BITCHES! COMMENT! haha Current Music: MSI - Played (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
10:35 am	When ya pimps in the crib ma, drop it like it's hot, drop it like it's hot When a nigga get a attitude, pop it like it's hot, pop it like it's hot It's early, and i don't know why i am awake but i am, haha, so alas, don't be hatin. Upper chi, represent! A song all should listen to is "Peace of Mind" by Boston, hahaha, old school if you know what i'm sayin and i think you do. Anyway, keep it real gangstas Current Music: Survivor - Eye of the Tiger (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 18th, 2004
6:02 pm	Well, haha, how about an update about the concert itself. The opening band, The Autumn Offering (i think) would have been really good if i didn't have to look at them, haha. Trivium was flipping amazing. Defiantely one of my new top bands. I got their CD and a trivium shirt at the show. Ill Nino i always thought was good to begin with, but they are so freaking sweet live. It was mad aweseomeness. And of course, 40 Below Summer owned that show. I got a 40 below shirt that has their logo in the front and says "fuck the darkness, follow the sun" on the back. All awesome bands, and everyone got to talk to the front man from 40 below, but i didn't becuase they all went running and i decided it would be wise if i watched all the coats and shirts and shit so it didn't get stolen. It sucked, but all those bands are so awesome! I don't know if any of you listen to them or anything, but if you don't you should! a small taste of 40 below, haha Come step up to the plate And please allow me to demonstrate As you step into the rear of the sideshow bus Strap it on cuz it's time to get a head rush Twist the cap and tap the bottle That's my motto - here it comes full throttle Straight up at ya from 40 Below Freezing - you're bleeding as you feel the winds blow Can not stop this, you can not break this, you can not crush this Get your ass out the way I see you shakin cuz the time's up wreck that ass with my starting line-up Bolos and body blows, hooks and haymakers re-animate, suffocate your breath taker Kick down your doors - excuse the intrusion swift and clean over the execution Quick get shot - you're rocked - it'll bend you over This is the sideshow, bitch - I thought I told ya Can not stop this, you can not break this, you can not crush this Get your ass out the way You can't escape the disease of the freeze - of the sideshow release - come and bring you to your knees This is the last straw - I can't control, I explode Now I got you in a choke hold You can't try to get off - you'll get lost - you'll get tossed when I'm up in your face full force You can't try to get passed - you won't last It's your ass - when I rip you in half I know I ignite like a pyro - burn inside so Step into the sideshow I know - gonna go psycho - might go Step into the sideshow I know I ignite like a pyro - make em burn when they Step into the sideshow Gonna cut em in half really tight - so kickin your ass when ya Step into the sideshow Don't get me hot - you'll catch a right cold - check the eyes, bro Step into the sideshow Punk suck - gonna front on the ride - motherfucker Step into the sideshow I'm bringin all the pain straight out Current Mood: energetic Current Music: 40 Below Summer - Step Into the Sideshow (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
8:37 pm	I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what i can or should do. I wish i could just get something right for once, but yet again it would seem i've failed (like always) Current Music: Mushroomhead - Destroy the world around me (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2004
11:58 am	Where the fuck you at? Alrighty, last night was sheerly undoubtable awesomesauce. Went to the mall with josh, amber, michelle, swati, binh, heather, some other people i don't know, haha, met up with sarah, brian, tom, etc. at Tom Jones. Had frech toast. Got dropped off at rite aid, got hit with an ice scraper, drew rocket ships all over josh's car windows (hahaha, like penises with NASA written on the shaft). Everyone needs to download the song "Fled" by Twisted Method Empty a clip to ease my pain. All I have is hate for everything. I'll clinch my fist if you insist. Show you every reason I exist. So what, so what the fuck you want? Apologies up front? Yeah right we fight to let it out, blow. I want it right now, revengence is a must. I'm about to bust well that's fucking tough. I see you blow me off I've had e-fucking-nough Of this pain and this bullshit Cuz that's just what it is I'm getting fucking pissed Nothin ever seems to go my way never, ever, ever, ever I'd rather sit and suffer than accept these games you play Stuck I feel as though I'm fucked Shit out of fucking luck But I guess I'll deal with it fine whatever, nevermind You must be fucking blind if you can't see it's killing me! Everybody from the front to back Get in the pit and show 'em where you're at Where the fuck you at? Right here right here WHERE THE FUCK YOU AT?!? I can feel the thickness of your pain And I want to wish it all away You inject filth to excite your brain I can feel it in your shallow veins. Please just shut your fucking face It's just a fucking phase. Go away give me some space. Go you need to go home Leave me the fuck alone I can't deal with your shit! Whatever, nevermind! You must be fucking blind if you can't see it's killing me! [Chorus] Is there any place that's fit for me? Anywhere that we can go? It seems that they have taken everything Sacrifice the ones who stood alone. We can't let them get away with this No we can't let this go. Cuz right now it's time for punishment. And I know I'm not alone You got my back! Current Mood: energetic Current Music: Twisted Method - Fled (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
11:04 pm	I hear voices, deep within me Finding out im, no so strong Sometimes i dont, think so clearly Get the feeling, somethings wrong WRONG GOT IT WRONG ALWAYS WRONG SOMETHINGS WRONG Infectious a scab onto the world It seems my lifes been a farce Wishing on the stars I'm just a poster of what we shouldnt be I put the whole world in a noose On the surface, i seem normal Everythings as, it should be Farther down though, im so ugly Something you wont, ever see WRONG GOT IT WRONG ALWAYS WRONG SOMETHINGS WRONG Infectious, a scab onto the world It seems my lifes been a farce Wishing on teh stars I'm just a poster of what you shouldnt be I put the whole world in a noose Lately i dont, feel so healthy Get the feeling, somethings wrong WRONG GOT IT WRONG ALWAYS WRONG SOMETHINGS WRONG Infectious, a scab onto the world It seems my lifes been a farce Wishing on the stars I'm just a poster for what I shouldnt be You put this whole world in a noose Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Motograter - Wrong (2 Comments |Comment on this)
4:54 pm	Randomely semi real update, haha Perhaps a semi real update, haha. I havne't been doing much of anything with my time. Just school and karate. Gonna start riding again if it ever stops raining. Gonna get a mushroomhead sticker for my bike for christmas hopefully, haha, it's the only thing i really am asking my mom for. Holla back home fries, woo woo, haha. I'm glad that things are starting to smooth over with me and everyone. It's really awesome to have ya'all fools as friends again, it wasn't the same without you crackers, haha Current Mood: Bangarang! Current Music: Shadows Fall - Of One Blood (5 Comments |Comment on this)
3:49 pm	Alright, i'm back biatches, haha. I figured i'll give this another go. So yeah, i can't figure out how to make it so it was like it used to be. I cna't find where anything is now, haha, rawr! and by the way, go listen to mushroomhead (5 Comments |Comment on this)